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Wednesday, June 3, 2009,6:11:00 PM

hopeless.

I tried very hard to hold back my tears, but I really couldn't.
The tears are really too heavy, it understimated me.
It thought I could hold it back, but I really can't.
What should I do?
I really don't know.
Nobody knows.
I know I really don't know how to socialize with people,
Nobody can understand me, my feelings.
I really have this fear of getting near new people.
I really don't know how to communicate with people who I am really not familiar with.
Sometimes, I don't even know how to communicate with my friends.
I really tried my best to join the conversation and did my very best,
But I really can't.
When I can't do it, my friends weren't there to support me.
I realized, I still don't have true friends.
When I really hope I can have someone to depend on,
No one was there.
I felt depressed, no one's there.
I felt unhappy, no one's there.
I felt scared, no one's there.
When will someone be there to reach out the hand and let me depend on?
When will this day ever come?
Will it ever come at first?
I really felt hopeless...
I don't know what to do.
Can anyone help me?
No one.
No one can understand my feelings.
A firm, no.

Joyce_#;