After trying so hard, everything just don't turn out right.
I've given my best, yet it seems like nobody seen it.
Maybe some do, but some did not.
Exhausted.
I really want to give up already.
I always told myself to forget it, forget it.
But I can't, I really can't.
All I could do was to grieve over it again and again.
My fault? I guess so.
But I want a rest right now, really.


Without words - Park Shin Hye/Jang Geun Suk

Should've ignored what I felt
What I felt deep in my heart
Coz now I don't even know
How to start letting you go
Oh yeah...
It hurts so bad I can't explain
I should've just ran away
Beside you I just can't stay
Coz I know that we won't be
More than friends it's clear to see
Oh yeah...
Coz in your heart is where she'll be
Without words you have shown me what love is
Without words your name is what my heart screams
It breaks me just to know that you really love her so
I'll try my best that it won't show
Without words you have made me much pain
Without words feels like I have drowned in the rain
And I was such a fool to believe that there was really you and me
Without saying a word
I'll pretend that I don't hear
My heart whenever you're near
And though it doesn't subside
Whenever our worlds collide
I know...
Someday I'll learn to let you go
Without words you have shown me what love is
Without words your name is what my heart screams
It breaks me just to know that you really love her so
I'll try my best that it won't show
Without words you have made me much pain
Without words feels like I have drowned in the rain
And I was such a fool to believe that there was really you and me
Without a word I really don't know why
To you I'd never learn to say goodbye
Without words you have shown me what love is
Without words your name is what my heart screams
It breaks me just to know that you really love her so
I'll try my best that it won't show
Without words you have shown me what love is
Without words your name is what my heart screams
It breaks me just to know that you really love her so
I'll try my best that it won't show
Should've ignored what I felt
What I felt deep in my heart
Coz now I don't even know
How to start letting you go
Oh yeah...
It hurts so bad I can't explain

Very in love with Park Shin Hye's songs now, because of You're Beautiful. (:
Gonna finish this drama and start on Heartstrings! :D
Anyways, have made a new pair of specs! *strikes off one stuff off my resolution list*
Brown specs, rectangular frame, like finally xD
I dont dare go sch on thurs/fri lar T.T ltr the specs vry weird how...~
OHKAY ANW.
Very disappointed with myself these few days...
All my test results like what like that, haizzz.
Depressed max.
Nevermind, shall work very hard then, so I can get my 9 pts (:
Anyway, today was really glad, because of some events (: certain only uh.
My discus throwing is so funny, omgggg, i kicked the cone when i threw, MUAHAHA.
Oh yeahh i like khairi's and haziq's throw, very nice sehh!
Thats abt all, anw im at 'You're beautiful' eppy 7 (:!
JIAYOU JOYCE, SCORE WELL FOR YOUR TESTS! ^^

Joyce_#;



I yearned for it, yet I couldn't have it.
Seem to have been better, but still not much.
We are only left with few months, how long is that few months?
Everything seem to be fated, and our destiny has also been decided.
I guess I shall let nature take its course, I believe I would achieve it one day, soon.
Believe you can, and you're halfway there.

Some thoughts uh, guess if u wan, u guess correct no prize LOL :D
I have many things I want to achieve in 2012! QUICK :D
1. Cut my hair (which is tmr HAHA)
2. Change my specs (soon!)
3. New school bag (probably~)
4. New pencil case (YESSS!)
5. Blouses and dresses
6. Shorts
7. Skirts
8. 9 points for L1R4, 11 points for L1R5
9. Get into JC/Poly (havent decide)
10. If go poly, get into chinese media/accountings
11. If go JC, get into those have CO de
12. Buy Mayday's latest album
13. Meet up with gen and yokeyee sooooon so i can pass them their bracelets! :D

Yeaaaa... thats for all eh, I wanna achieve~ :D
JIAYOU BAH JOYCE :D I CAN DO IT~!

Joyce_#;


Many things have been happening these few days, I guess I have grown slightly a bit, probably not on the outside, but on the inside.
Thanks to my friends, I can slightly forget what happened at home. But at times, I just start to think abt it again and again.
Thanks to my family, I can forget about how sometimes I just can't be that sociable with my friends.
Probably the smile that I'm wearing is fading away.
Today, almost broke down.
Not bcos of my friends nor family, its bcos of O'lvls.
Idk why am I feeling that stress, but the source was the tests.
Trying to maintain my smile is such a tiring chore.
But, if my friends and family took the effort to make me smile, i shall stay strong for a little longer.
Just a little longer.

Joyce_#;


If tomorrow is 2012, and you can only call one person for help, who would you call?

It's part of the lyrics in 五月天's 诺亚方舟. Currently vry in love with this song, bcos it really has that feeling like, if 2012 really exists, what would you want to take away? What would you miss the most? Who would you call in the most crucial time? Left me thinking for very long.

ANYWAY, time check. 12.45am, 16 Jan 2012.
Yeapp, went kisiao bcos of the tests coming up.
CURRENT SITUATION: I have 6 - 7 tests coming up, and yes, all very heavy subs like chem, el, bio, hist, geog, and stuff. I think I would go crazy sooner or later. Probably another breakdown.
Just now memorized hist notes, but i think i forgot all already, by now.
It's so difficult lar pls, somemore only have 20min to finish one essay, how can finish. The one reason alone nid write 3/4 of a foolscap sia! -.- How can finish, haishh.
And, tmr got el test. Situational writing. How i wished it was a homework instead of test.

Also, these few days alot of things happened, esp in my family.
Not gonna say, but it's really pressuring me alot.
Trying to be the happy one at home, yet... things dont go smoothly.
Today, went to pray Gonggong since his death anniversary is only a few days away.
Threw alot of coins and wished alot.
For family, friends, results, world peace and such stuff.
I wish Gonggong could hear me, so that he can fulfil my wishes.
I really miss him alot though, he's like... an angel to me.
Yet, the angel has to go back to his home right? (;
Ohkay anw! I think this whole wk not gonna go down for recess unless VERY hungry.
Have to work vry hard for all my tests and my homework.
Cnt afford to slack.

WHAT I WANT FOR OLVLS:
9 points.
Fav num 9, so i wan get 9 :D
And, like tt i can go to the course i wan.
Have decided on two courses: Chinese media & Accountacy.
Havent decide which yet, cos havent go and see the details of both courses.
But most likely gonna kick accountacy out, :x cos Jiejie say competitive.
And i dun like other courses, all science one D: and business.
See liao gong gong xD
So... yea.
And i wan go in ngee ann! Got my both ideal courses :D
And many friends are going thr too, and my seniors wld be there as well :D
So, gonna work vry hard!~
ALL THE BEST JOYCE :D

Joyce_#;

Joyce; Qinqxinn. (:
Turning SIXTEEN this year, weeee! (:



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